headed to tamp today. wif grandma, sip, nic and raed! yah, i was the driver for the day. i almost bang onto a car when we were going to end the journey soon. the moment really scares everyone off! esp raed! LOLx! he raised his voice and told me "you're going to bang onto the car behind!" lolx.. sip, nic and grandma also got scared off by me! lol! the incident was kinda horrible for dem. but in the end, it turn into a joke. lol.. raed is alwaz my angel? lol.. my best guidance? alwaz been aware of me. cuz he knows me best! lol.. aware i'm alwaz careless, blur, sotong, restless, blah blah.. lol.. so esp i'm driving, he's much more in aware. lol!

he's alwaz taking care of me greatly well. be it in terms of physical, mentally, emotionally, apperance or what ever it is realated to me. his concern is alwaz here for me. his attention for me is alwaz here. well, compare his attitude (the way he treat me) towards me and my attitude (the way i treated him) him, is really one heaven one earth. lolx.. he's juz someone who's willing to do anything juz to make me smile or cheer me up. how nice is he. sometimes i'm really touched by him for what he had done for me. budden i alwaz try to act cool act "dao" act fierce infront of him. hur hur! (he isn't aware of it! shh..!) kakaka.. recently my health is reali bad! ya, here he is.. ordering me.. alwaz ordering me to do this and that.. everything for my own good! not only health for the recent, facial is another thing too. lol.. alwaz advice me for the benefits. hurr! k lah, enough of him le lah. he's juz too great to be my bf. instead of being my bf, shall let him be my hubby bah? =X LOL! OMG! WAHAHA~!!

thks so much raed for alwaz taking care of me well. and really sorry to make you worry for me most of the time. esp recently.

something is reali bothering me. i'm doubt in it too. donno/not sure what am i stressing with.. skl work? skl life? my life? my health? or ... ... ???

sigh.. think skl matters is bothering me the most bah. there's really no motivation for me in my studies. i really shows no interest. felt so restless all the time. seriously felt so sian! used to be a hardworking student and kin to learn and buck up in skl work. but now, is like totally sian loh. don feel like studying. totally no interest & felt so restless when come to skl work. sigh~.. knew i wasn't in a playful mood or slacking mood or whatever loh. juz i oso donno how and why. sigh.. or i guess muz be that poly application makes me feel lost? lost in everthing in studies? lost in hope? sigh~... miserable.. restless...

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